Just Damn Tired

Okay, this is going to be me bitching, if you don’t want to hear it go somewhere else, this my space & I will damn well bitch if I want to, you’ve been forewarned.

I am fucking tired, tire of waiting on fucking doctors, tired of stupid tests that leave me bruised & looking like a fucking junkie, tired of waiting for phone calls to give results of tests, tired of getting results that lead to more goddamn test & more fucking specialists! I’m tired of not feeling well & hurting & just fucking tired of being tired!

I am tired of staying positive. I am tired of acting like everything is okay, I’m tired of saying I’m ok when I fucking not!

I can feel depression trying to creep up on me & I’m tired of fighting it off. It’s taken me weeks just to try & decide what to update here, this isn’t what I wanted to write about but I knew that if I didn’t get this out I was going blow a gasket & when you have a brain tumor blowing a gasket may not be the best thing for your brain, but all I want to do is scream!

As I said at the beginning I was going to be bitching. Hopefully next time I show up I will have heard from doctors & know more test results. Also with luck this mood will have lifted. Maybe just need to find a stranger to listen to go on & bitch & not tell me I need to just stay positive & how well I’m handling everything. I don’t like laying all this on family & friends, they’ve all been great but… just but.

For days now all I want to do is sit & cry, it’s been years since a depression has come & hit me like this & it really pisses me off!

To anyone who decided to not heed warning & made this far, thanks for reading.

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About francinesplace

I like to read, draw & write. I tend to write the way I talk. I wander a bit & usually get to my point. Some times get lost & never know where I'll wind up! Come along for the ride.
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2 Responses to Just Damn Tired

  1. Dana Accardi says:

    Realizing that this post is over three weeks old, I’ll still say – let it out honey! Lay it on us. Bitch until you just don’t feel like bitchin anymore. That’s when you know that you’ve gotten it off your chest and you can move on to the next challenge. You, the dogs, the hubby, the kids and the friends will all fare better for it. I hope you’ve heard something definitive from your docs by now. Signed ~ stranger in Atlanta 🙂

    • Hi, Thank you so much for you comments. I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to reply & thank you, all I can say is life gets in the way sometimes:) Your comments are so appreciated & they helped:) Also, thank you for taking time to read my post to begin with:)

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